Today I am “the answer to life, the universe and everything” according to Douglas Adams.
I have never had an issue with with birthdays. Age is just a number as far as I’m concerned, and I really mean it. I genuinely feel blessed to be alive and to have reached another birthday.
It may sound like a cliche but it’s true.
As you may know there was a time when that wasn’t guaranteed (not that it ever is!). 11 years ago I was led to believe that my life now would be very different; constant unbearable pain, physically deformed, no energy and unable to have any more children.
Instead I am happy, my condition is under control, I am back to looking like myself and I have my beautiful, almost 10 year old son.
Today, as I turn 42, I am feeling more grateful than I have ever felt in my life.
My children are happy, healthy, amazing mini-humans who not only saved their pocket money to buy me thoughtful presents from Harry Potter Studios, but made their own card and made the most delicious brunch.
My husband had a clock that we fell in love with when we visited Italy recently sent over for my present. My friends and family have really been there for me during what has been a rollercoaster 24hrs. I had my injection yesterday, we went to see Mamma Mia: Here I go again and I laughed til I cried and cried because I was heartbroken, I found out some devastating news and my family and friends said and did some truly incredible things to support both me and one of my closest friends and her family at a very difficult time.
I cried tears of sadness and tears of joy within moments, not just once, but all day.
As we get older it is easy to focus on the negatives.
Society encourages it.
The wrinkles we are led to believe are bad. The grey hairs we are encouraged to colour in. We are constantly told that youth is good and age is bad.
What is so wrong with getting older? We all get older.
Would you want to go back to having the experiences you were having when you were in your teens?
Believing the things you believed?
Feeling the insecurities you felt?
Given a choice between having the body I had then and the experiences and emotions I had then and being me as I am now, wrinkles, stretch marks, grey hairs and all, I know what I would choose. I feel honoured to be growing older. I love that I have 40+years of experiences, knowledge and memories to look back over.
There is no size 12, wrinkle free, body that can top the wisdom and memories of 20 years of life.
I don’t agree with George Carlin, I don’t think he does either for the record, I think age is a very small price to pay for wisdom.
Wisdom is something to be treasured.
Age is something to be cherished.
“Age is a hell of a price to pay for wisdom”
As we take steps along this journey, we are all ultimately heading for the same destination, which ever road we take.
I have been fortunate enough to have some wonderful companions on my journey.
I have also experienced the heartbreak of losing friends and family members for as long as I can remember. Not just people older than me. People who completed their journey way too soon. Friends who left us before the even finished school. Family members who should have had many more years of memory making.
I was nearly added to that number. I am acutely aware that my journey could have been much shorter and much less enjoyable.
I make an effort every single day to find at least 10 things I am grateful for. I have a little pile of notebooks next to my bed where I have written my daily gratitude every day for years now.
“Today I am grateful for… I am glad I… I am thankful for…”.
Some days it’s a struggle. Some days it feels impossible and other days it is easy and I write twenty. I make the effort to do it every day thought remind myself how lucky I am.
My birthday is always a day for counting my blessings.
Today is no exception. I am thankful for the amazing people in my life. For the opportunities I am given. For the places I have seen the experiences I have had and I am grateful for you.
I am grateful that you have taken the time to read my inner babblings. That you have found my website and decided to delve deeper. That you are taking time to get to know me better. Thank you.
I may not actually be the answer to life, the universe and everything but I hope you have taken something away from reading this.
I hope you have a wonderful day.